how do i start..
i realise, how self absorbed a person i am.
i realise, how self bad a person i am.
i realise, how i think about myself first every time something happens.
was i already like that originally?
or did i change?
i think i changed.
i didn't ask more after you recovered from a tiff.
i assumed everything was alright.
i didn't contact you more even though i know you're bored.
i was too busy with my work.
above all that, i didn't really care about the outside world,
because my mood was bad. (is still bad)
i know i'm selfish.
i know i'm not being a great friend.
i know i'm not being even a good friend .
i'm sorry.
yes, i really am.
but, i predict my mood will continue to be bad for quite awhile..
sigh..

and don't ask me if anything's wrong when you see me.
i'll still act normal.
don't see me as a hypocritical idiot who hides my feelings.
perhaps i am.
but i just don't wanna spoil others' moods.
... or is it spoilt already?
sigh...

two angels killed.